Hello, My Son Kevin,
today would be your fourth year as an Angel,
missing you is something I do daily.
I will forever miss the Easter Lilies
you always gave to me, this time of year.
I will forever remember your spirit, your zest
for life, your endless smiles and most of all
your love for me,and Brian. Your day today
will be remembered by many not because its your
anniversary, but it's also Easter Sunday this year.
Seems only fitting to have them both celebrated
together for you are with our Lord now and he is
taking care of you. It is I who mourns your loss
and waits patiently for God to take me home to
be with you and your loving Brother Kurt.

In so many ways it seems as yesterday since I
held you both in my arms and hugged and kissed
you both. Yet now its been four very long,
painful years. I will be here doing as always
helping others and myself learn to live with
our losses. I'm committed to helping others
in your memory just after waking up from the
nightmare of loosing you both. Wow, has my
life changed, some for the better, some not
so good. I am a compassionate person and always
felt that way even while raising you both, yet
now it seems I am even more so. My heart aches
always for missing you both seems as if someone
ripped my heart out, and then said, "OK, go on
and live now."

The question I ask daily is how
does one live without a heart? How does one
continue to love, without a heart?
I am learning to do just that live, not like it
but live it. I am learning to be who I am and
always was, just differently now.
It is in your memory and the love I have for
you both that I write this letter to say,
Happy Easter my precious Sons' Kevin & Kurt.
Kevin you are the eldest, take good care of
yourself and your brother. May you both know
this Easter will be different without you both
here to make it special as you once did.
I still have your Easter Eggs made of sugar,
haven't been able to part with them just yet.

You know the ones, I had made years ago for
all of you kids. One day when my heart allows
it, I will pass them to your son Bryan,
he has grown and looks just like you Kevin,
wow you would be so proud of him. Each time
I see him he reminds me more of you, even the
ability to climb like you did, he scares me
and his Mom just as you scared me so many times.
Yet he also has that same love for it and I know
God will protect him and so will you.
I Love You Kevin, Happy Easter and never forget
I am here, doing my best to live without my heart.
Love Forever.
Mom & Brian

By Pat McDougle~April 2003
In Loving Memory of her Angels' Kevin & Kurt